I Thought I Was Done

Posted by Putu Winda on 7:10 PM in

Unfortunately not yet.

Two days ago was your birthday

I'm missing the hassle to find the birthday cake that can deliver it to you

Or finding the best birthday gift for you.

I can feel your hands around me and the smells of your skins

I can hear your voice and your silly laugh

Your smile, your silly jokes, your stupid question.

I miss you for who you are

I thought I needed someone super smart that can explain the world to me

But apparently, I need your dumb and lame question about life

I thought I needed someone that can always tell me logical and sensible things

But apparently, I missed your call and talks about the most illogical things about the universe

But I also remember all the fight

The missing explanation of why you are not available

The gap when you were not with me

The unusual reasons why the phone call was not made

And I do understand why we can't be together

All the difference

And the unfinished past

The inability of both of us to let go of our ego

Dear Mr. Al Balushi

Happy belated Birthday to you

Thank you for the laugh, the touch, the memories, the love

I still love you, maybe a bit too much

Because when I thought I was done, apparently I am not.

Winda,

Canggu, 3 June 23

10.08 am